Anxieties, Lists and Keeping My S*** Together

I must confess to being a little…anxious.

I have three-and-a-half days left at my old job, and next Monday I start up again as a proofreader, which makes me nervous. Not so much the bit about starting at a new office or any of that – more the bit about how I will be the only proofreader at a pretty decently sized advertising company. I think there’s going to be a lot of work, and I worry about my ability to draw lines and not burn myself out. That is going to be a challenge: saying no, putting work to bed at a decent hour, and stemming the tide.

On top of this, I sat down on Sunday to assess what will need to get done for the wedding in about hour months. You guys, there were LISTS. Lists on top of lists. Bullet points with subpoints about the subpoints. WHY DIDN’T I ELOPE, BLOGOSPHERE?

So I, at the moment, am trying to breathe, to remember that I am only one person and there is only so much I can do on any given day. This will be the mantra for the next couple of months, in fact.

Hello. My name is Becks. I am only one person. There is only so much I can accomplish in a day. Today might not be your day. Tomorrow may not either.

What I’m most worried about is that all this zaniness will cause my writing life to fall by the wayside. I’ve let it happen before – I really don’t want it to happen again. And yet, I haven’t gotten a lot done with the plotting of the new book, BIG BEN, and that’s mostly my fault. I want to start drafting in July, and that month is awfully close. It’s pulling faces at me from behind bushes and around corners, taunting me. *shakes fist at July*

It’s going to take a certain amount of focus and moxie to push back, draw lines and compartmentalize my life so that I do my job and still get to do the things I love. Like writing and encouraging all of you to write. Like spending time with The Man watching Burn Notice and Warehouse 13 and odd, Scottish dark fantasy movies that he stumbles across. This is my challenge, people. I hope I am up to it.

On a side note, I have a couple of future plans for blog posts I’m throwing out there, one of which is to feature well-done self-published/independent books that are out there. I’m wading through it so you don’t have to! I’m just a little sick of all the in-fighting between traditional and non-traditional routes to publishing and choose instead to be maddeningly positive about books, no matter how they’re distributed – so long as they’re good.

It’s a big sandbox, people. Everyone can play.

Also, I officially have 22 subscribers to this blog, which is 22 more than I ever thought would be interested in what I have to say. (The number in the right sidebar says 364, but they lump Twitter and blog followers together.) So I’m thinking giveaway. What do people like to see in giveaways?

  • Critiques? (Either of queries or chapters)
  • Books? (Probably already-out books since I don’t have a lot of ARCs)
  • Preorders?
  • Something else?

And finally, if you haven’t already, go sign up for July #writemotivation over on K.T. Hanna‘s blog. It’s seriously no obligation – just a great way to meet and bond with other writers, both when your story is going awesome and when it’s being a total bastard.

Now, if you’ll please excuse me…I need some ibuprofin.

10 thoughts on “Anxieties, Lists and Keeping My S*** Together

  1. This is why we all love you, Becks. 😀 You’re so full of awesome and a real inspiration to me personally. I’ve said it multiple times, you and KT are responsible for my writing obsession. I still owe you a drink. 😀

    As for the other stuff, you got it. Yes, it will take some reorganizing and maybe some illegal cloning experiments, but you’ll be able to do it. Once the wedding is over, you’re life will settle a little (unless you come up with something else!).

    Good luck with the new job, blog, wedding, and WIP. See, when you write it out like that, it isn’t so bad…right? 😀

    Take care and thanks for being there to cheer me on. 😀

    1. Good lord – you’re gonna make me blush. 😛 I’m thrilled to have helped inspire you, buddy. Keep up all your fantastic hard work! We may help keep you going, but it wouldn’t matter if you weren’t getting it done every night in the writing trenches.

  2. *loves you* Well I’ll prod you to keep the writing fire alive. I mean, seriously, there are these plushies I have to have…

    Also, I know you can do the CE thing ❤ You'll be fine. And the wedding? Will go smoothly and perfectly – you'll be surprised and happy as a pig in mud!

    I'm fine with people self/indie publishing (whatever you want to call it), as long as it's not a short cut. As long as the work is good and the prose polished – I'm a fan of books in any form. The thing is… finding the gems can be hard (although I have problems finding gems in trad pub too).

    *hugs you* I would like a Becks for giveaway 😀 What? Not an option? Meanie.

    1. Val plushies and Dom plushies and ALL THE PLUSHIES!

      *smooshes you* Thanks, hon! All of your support is beyond amazing! ❤ ❤ ❤

  3. Wow! Planning a wedding take a LOT of time but you know what? I do sometimes miss the to-do lists with embedded to-do lists for each bullet point 😀 Ok you would have asked me at this time last year, I may have said something different!
    Good luck with everything!
    I am sure you will manage to give some time to your writing but your reminder is a good one, you are indeed only one person and you do want to make sure you can stand at your own wedding for more than 5 minutes without dozing off! 😀

    1. Lists will be my savior, for real. It’s the only way I’m going to get through the next few months. And YES, I would definitely like to not be so over-extended that I have a narcolepsy fit during the wedding. Yikes! 🙂

  4. Good luck on finding the gems. I tried doing that, but I was only going to highlight the good ones, and couldn’t find any. I think I’m giving in and reviewing whatever I read, trad or indie, positive and negative, and focusing on what we can learn from them, as writers.
    I love that mantra. It’s like the spoon theory. Everyone only has so many spoons to use for a day, and once they’re gone, you’re done. Use them wisely. It’s OKAY to say no, you can’t/don’t want to add that one more thing to your plate. YOU CAN DO IT! *hugs* Any time you need some timed wars or anything, let us know. I’m always game.

    1. I like your review plan – I’m excited to read them for sure. And who knows – I could get so frustrated that I abandon this plan very quickly… 🙂

      *glomps* Thank you, sweetie! When I get to the drafting phase, I might be down for some nighttime wars.

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